You Once Told Me Forever...

- i hate when people say i look miserable when im just sitting there. do i need to paint a smile on all the time?
- sometimes you need a breakdown.like yelling at everyone, cry until you fall and cant breathe. then you feel better. and if you dont, at least people will know you're not okay.
- im tired of people telling me what to do and trying to live up to everyones expectations. fuck off! this is my life. not yours. dont worry about what i do
- back to where we started, losing who we were, everybody knows that, you'd break your neck to keep your chin up
- just because her eyes don't tear doesnt mean her heart doesnt cry.. just because she comes off strong, doesnt mean theres nothing wrong...
- i need to get out of here, just get away, just go somewhere where i dont have to think or feel for a while.
- without you there is no love. without you there is no me. without you there is nothing. so im asking just one thing; please dont leave...
- and as she stepped on the scale she looked up at herself in the mirror.. with tears running down her cheeks.. she asked herself: 'will i ever change?'. she complained:'will i ever be good enough for him?'. she stepped off the scale, opened the drawer.. and slowly bled her pain away...
- while they dance she holds him close, while he dreams of another and can't wait to let her go. same old story, everyone knows.. one heart holding on, the other letting go...
- here's a knife and here's my heart.. just kill it.. i dont want to feel the pain anymore.. it hurts when i smile.. and it hurts when i breathe..
- her sadness did not have that. it dripped slowly into her life without her noticing it, at least not noticing it until it consumed her fully, and smothered her with darkness.
- behind this innocent smile of mine, lay words left unsaid. words of longing, love, anger, and hate, all repeated inside my head.
- my face is going to break, my smile is so fake, my hands start to shake, my bloody wrists, so much at stake, will this be the last breath i take?
- trust me, i know how it feels. i know how it feels to cry in the shower so noone can hear you; waiting for everyone to be asleep so you can fall apart; when everything hurts so bad you just want it all to end. i know exactly how it feels.
- i wish i had the guts to walk away and forget about what we had, but i cant because i know you wont come after me and that's what hurts the most.
- now that you're gone i wake up every day wishing i was dead. and i put on my 'happy' face so i can go out and lie to the world...
- but sometimes acting happy makes you hurt that much more. she cuts her wrist to watch it bleed hoping someone will save her..
- i walked through the hallway holding my wrists hoping noone will see me like this. he looks at me, scared what he'll find, he never thought i had these things in my mind. he asks me: "is there any more?", and looking at him with tears in my eyes i whisper a simple reply.. "what did you think the bracelets were for..?"
- she cuts herself. never too deep, never enough to die. but enough to feel the pain. enough to feel the scream inside.
- a broken mirror, a bleeding fist, a silver blade against a wrist, tears falling down to lips unkissed. ignore her and she wont exist, she's not the kind you'll come to miss..
- there's a girl in my mirror crying tonight and there's nothing i can say to make her feel alright.
- she'll spend one more night on a dirty floor waiting, one more day to run out the door.
- i have lost the will to live. simply nothing more to give. there is nothing more for me. need the end to set me free.
- at night i pray that soon your face will fade away..
- im slowly running out of reasons to hold on
- im fighting with myself, trying to get you out of my head, but im hanging on every word you said.
- a shot to kill the pain. a pill to drain the shame. a purge to stop the gain. a cut to break the vein. a smoke to ease the crave. a drink to win the game. an addiction's an addiction, because it always hurts the same...
- know what it's like to want to die. how it hurts to smile. how you try to fit in but you cant. how you hurt yourself on the outside, to try to kill the pain on the inside.
- too much silence can be misleading. you're drifting; i can hear it in the way you're breathing
- i hope you know that months ago, i was his first call in the morning and his last thought at night. i hope you know that i was his fist love, that i was there before you. i wiped away the tears and held him through the rough nights; and all you're getting is my sloppy seconds. dear, he still tells me that he cares, and to you? he only whispers it when he's unbuttoning your shirt.
- and when i wake up, i realize that everything's still wrong. im still here, and you're still gone.
- her ipod is full of heartbreaking lyrics that she wishes she could say to him
- is anybody out there? doesn't anyone see? when the lights are off something's killing me.
- i looked out the car window today and im realizing that i miss you again. its funny how out of nowhere you came to mind, and the truth is, i wish you were still here
- stay mad as long as you can because once you're not mad anymore, it hurts. it hurts like hell and once it hurts that bad, you cant make yourself mad anymore.
- i just want to fall into your arms when nothing's going my way, and i want you to hold me and tell me everything is going to be okay.
- the only two places where i feel absolutely safe are either in a bed with fresh white sheets and pillows surrounding my head, or in water. like on the bottom of a swimming pool. alone. weightless. peaceful. nobody talking, nobody pretending. just being.
- people are always asking, "are you okay?" but they're never really expecting the truth. the reality of the matter is, if i was okay, you wouldn't really have to wonder.
- im not okay, and you need to know that. no, im not going to tell you what's wrong. im just.. im not okay, and i need you rightnow. that's it. plain and simple. i need you to be here for me, if only for a few minutes.
- it made me wonder how many times we forgive just because we dont want to lose someone, even if they dont deserve our forgiveness
- she fell asleep last night with tears in her eyes. it may take her some time tp grasp the meaning of goodbye. she wont forget him, but she'll try.
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- another poem, another line, another girl pretending she's fine, another house, another day, she wishes she could get away, another heartbreak, another tear, another excuse she doesnt wana hear. another paper, another pen, she writes she wants to be strong again. another story, another lie, another night that she will cry. another band, another song, another days' passed, slowly gone. another scream, another doubt, "kick me while im down" to him she'd shout. another forced smile, another broken heart, just another girl wishing life would restart.
- which is worse: the heart breaker that wont stop calling or the broken hearted that keeps picking up?
- she hides herself with music. she never shows her feelings; always keeping things bottled up inside. i'd hate to see the day she exposes it all. when she tells you how you've made her feel; you'll never be able to look at her the same way again
- can we be like the movies? meet on the street in 5 years and fall in love all over again
- she's got the eyes of innocence, the face of an angel, the personality of a dreamer, and a smile that hides more pain than you could ever imagine
- of course she's gonna say that she's happy for you and flash the smile that you love... but if you look in those eyes, you can see that you shattered her world
- i trust him as far as i can throw him and i dont think i can lift him up.
- oh, how am i gonna do this. how do you tell the one you love Goodbye when it could be Forever?
- i figured all those people who have told me that the way you treat me is unacceptable well maybe they are right but if the way you treat me is bad.. i wish they could see for a second the way everyone else who claims to love me treats me.. cuz if they did they would see you exactly as i do, the most amazing person ever and the first person to treat me like im not just some girl who came off the street and happened to be still alive.
- you hit me with the truth, i was hoping for a bus
- there's a little truth behind every just kidding. a little curiosity behind every just wondering. a little knowkedge behind every i dont know. and a little emotion behind every i dont care
- there's a song blaring in her headphones; and her mom keeps telling her to turn it down. but she doesnt listen. why? because, it reminds her of a boy... that used to care
- when he walks by, i smile like i dont care, but in my heart im screaming lifes not fair
- so i love this boy. hes my world, but he doesnt care. he's off with some girl. she's probably prettier than me. she's probably nicer and smarter too. but no matter how great she is, she'll never love him like i do
- it's not what i feel for you. it's what i dont feel for anyone but you
- go ahead and take a walk in my shoes... i bet you'll fall on the first step
- he said he would stay on the phone until i stopped talking and fell asleep. when i woke up, i heard him say, "good morning. did you know you have deep conversations in your sleep? and incase you didnt know, i love you too."

- once more you tell those lies to me, why can't you just be straight up with honesty? when you say those things in my ear, why do you always tell me what you wanna hear?
- you must learn to let go, to move on, you can do this, you are strong
- i cannot forget that i am in love with you.
- even if my heart should break, you'd be the best mistake i'd ever make
- this is the moment that you know that you told her that you loved her but you don't
- being brokenhearted is like having broken ribs. on the outside it looks like nothings wrond, but every breath hurts
- sometimes i think that after so many failed relationships i've turned stone cold and just cant trust again
- and i wonder if you ever stop to think "man i miss her"
- could break a million hearts with the sadness within me
- i need a break from the loneliness that is totally consuming me
- "everyone smiles with that invisible gun to their head." -chuck palahniuk
- there's a black top road with a faded yellow line. it can take you back to a place, but it cant take you back in time
- the hardest part is waking up in the morning remembering what you'd been trying so hard to forget last night- she cant seem to realize that no matter how hard she tries to get rid of everything that reminds her of him, there wll always be one more thing.
- they say we're to young to be in love, but maybe they're to old to remember
- dont come running to me when that girl puts a hole through your heart, because i'll just walk away and leave you stranded. just like you left me when i needed you the most
- i know i shouldnt have answered my phone.. but ive been having a rough time. and just hearing your voice makes everything go away for that moment.
- once a whore you're nothing more, im sorry, that'll never change.
- there's not really anything to discuss. there's you and me. but no us
- i finally realize this is never gonna end. everytime he talks to me i think "oh here we go again."

Friends

Let's talk about friends:

Shouldn't friends be people that you can trust, you can count on, and get good advice from and confide in. But i really don't think theres anyone out there that is like that, that won't hurt you and won't talk behind your back. But as everyone GROWS up they FIND themselved, they tend to lose those so called "friends" for only minor things like expressing themselves, telling the truth, going out of their boundries, or even just growing apart from that or those friends. You wouldn't think that a friend wouldn't hold you when your crying and tell you everythings fine when they know it's all horribly wronf. Friends are just mirrly people you can "hang" with and "talk" to and just people with things in common. But the TRUTH is that until each and everone of us can let our guard down, let people see how we are actually feeling and stop all of the hurt and put somelove in every little thing. We can not truly trust someone. Until we can truly trust and believe in ourselfs.

The Start

Let me give you an insight into the life of yes, you guessed it... GIRLS! I'll lay down the basics first:

1. Never tell a girl she's ugly or fat. She won't stop obessing over it till it's too late.
2. If your going to take a girls' virginity make sure you truley love her! She'll never forget her first time and she'll end up falling in love with you.
3. If a girl is a bitch, then she's probably having a tough time. Cut her some slack. She's most likely not on her period. She's just having a rough patch in her life.
4. Cheating isn't acceptable under ANY condistions, she'll most likely forgive the girl and try with everything she can to forget you.
5. DOn't lie, it's not a way to gain her trust, she would most likely like the truth.
6. Complements always are a plus! It make her smile and feel good about herself.