You Once Told Me Forever...

- i hate when people say i look miserable when im just sitting there. do i need to paint a smile on all the time?
- sometimes you need a breakdown.like yelling at everyone, cry until you fall and cant breathe. then you feel better. and if you dont, at least people will know you're not okay.
- im tired of people telling me what to do and trying to live up to everyones expectations. fuck off! this is my life. not yours. dont worry about what i do
- back to where we started, losing who we were, everybody knows that, you'd break your neck to keep your chin up
- just because her eyes don't tear doesnt mean her heart doesnt cry.. just because she comes off strong, doesnt mean theres nothing wrong...
- i need to get out of here, just get away, just go somewhere where i dont have to think or feel for a while.
- without you there is no love. without you there is no me. without you there is nothing. so im asking just one thing; please dont leave...
- and as she stepped on the scale she looked up at herself in the mirror.. with tears running down her cheeks.. she asked herself: 'will i ever change?'. she complained:'will i ever be good enough for him?'. she stepped off the scale, opened the drawer.. and slowly bled her pain away...
- while they dance she holds him close, while he dreams of another and can't wait to let her go. same old story, everyone knows.. one heart holding on, the other letting go...
- here's a knife and here's my heart.. just kill it.. i dont want to feel the pain anymore.. it hurts when i smile.. and it hurts when i breathe..
- her sadness did not have that. it dripped slowly into her life without her noticing it, at least not noticing it until it consumed her fully, and smothered her with darkness.
- behind this innocent smile of mine, lay words left unsaid. words of longing, love, anger, and hate, all repeated inside my head.
- my face is going to break, my smile is so fake, my hands start to shake, my bloody wrists, so much at stake, will this be the last breath i take?
- trust me, i know how it feels. i know how it feels to cry in the shower so noone can hear you; waiting for everyone to be asleep so you can fall apart; when everything hurts so bad you just want it all to end. i know exactly how it feels.
- i wish i had the guts to walk away and forget about what we had, but i cant because i know you wont come after me and that's what hurts the most.
- now that you're gone i wake up every day wishing i was dead. and i put on my 'happy' face so i can go out and lie to the world...
- but sometimes acting happy makes you hurt that much more. she cuts her wrist to watch it bleed hoping someone will save her..
- i walked through the hallway holding my wrists hoping noone will see me like this. he looks at me, scared what he'll find, he never thought i had these things in my mind. he asks me: "is there any more?", and looking at him with tears in my eyes i whisper a simple reply.. "what did you think the bracelets were for..?"
- she cuts herself. never too deep, never enough to die. but enough to feel the pain. enough to feel the scream inside.
- a broken mirror, a bleeding fist, a silver blade against a wrist, tears falling down to lips unkissed. ignore her and she wont exist, she's not the kind you'll come to miss..
- there's a girl in my mirror crying tonight and there's nothing i can say to make her feel alright.
- she'll spend one more night on a dirty floor waiting, one more day to run out the door.
- i have lost the will to live. simply nothing more to give. there is nothing more for me. need the end to set me free.
- at night i pray that soon your face will fade away..
- im slowly running out of reasons to hold on
- im fighting with myself, trying to get you out of my head, but im hanging on every word you said.
- a shot to kill the pain. a pill to drain the shame. a purge to stop the gain. a cut to break the vein. a smoke to ease the crave. a drink to win the game. an addiction's an addiction, because it always hurts the same...
- know what it's like to want to die. how it hurts to smile. how you try to fit in but you cant. how you hurt yourself on the outside, to try to kill the pain on the inside.
- too much silence can be misleading. you're drifting; i can hear it in the way you're breathing
- i hope you know that months ago, i was his first call in the morning and his last thought at night. i hope you know that i was his fist love, that i was there before you. i wiped away the tears and held him through the rough nights; and all you're getting is my sloppy seconds. dear, he still tells me that he cares, and to you? he only whispers it when he's unbuttoning your shirt.
- and when i wake up, i realize that everything's still wrong. im still here, and you're still gone.
- her ipod is full of heartbreaking lyrics that she wishes she could say to him
- is anybody out there? doesn't anyone see? when the lights are off something's killing me.
- i looked out the car window today and im realizing that i miss you again. its funny how out of nowhere you came to mind, and the truth is, i wish you were still here
- stay mad as long as you can because once you're not mad anymore, it hurts. it hurts like hell and once it hurts that bad, you cant make yourself mad anymore.
- i just want to fall into your arms when nothing's going my way, and i want you to hold me and tell me everything is going to be okay.
- the only two places where i feel absolutely safe are either in a bed with fresh white sheets and pillows surrounding my head, or in water. like on the bottom of a swimming pool. alone. weightless. peaceful. nobody talking, nobody pretending. just being.
- people are always asking, "are you okay?" but they're never really expecting the truth. the reality of the matter is, if i was okay, you wouldn't really have to wonder.
- im not okay, and you need to know that. no, im not going to tell you what's wrong. im just.. im not okay, and i need you rightnow. that's it. plain and simple. i need you to be here for me, if only for a few minutes.
- it made me wonder how many times we forgive just because we dont want to lose someone, even if they dont deserve our forgiveness
- she fell asleep last night with tears in her eyes. it may take her some time tp grasp the meaning of goodbye. she wont forget him, but she'll try.
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